on my knees

i'm making myself sick to my stomach...i just want things to be better. I just want everything to be how it's supposed to be. I just don't know what that is.
Being a kid was so much easier. The hardest choices I had to make were to color or play with my dolls, to watch rugrats or ninja turtles...now life sucks. I want to do what God wants for me but I have no idea what that is!?!? I wish I could just be like Evan Almighty or Bruce Almighty and just be able to see God and talk face to face with him, have him send me packages telling me what to do...ahhhh I dont want to be wasting time if I'm not in the right place, if I'm not doing the right things but I have no idea what is right and what is wrong..all i know is i feel sick, I just want to sit in a ball and cry all the time..

of course this has to happen at finals too..