my life is one big refrain

Stitches hid the scars she’d hid so long
Always searching for the niche in which she belonged
Found it once…maybe twice
so easily enticed

fed so many lies
that even her dreams she began to disguise
every time her hopes arose
she was so easily disposed

Finally gave Him her heart
The only way for a new start
Ripped at the seams
Her hearts innocence she prays to redeem

Demons cannot be hurt
But in sin she finds no comfort
Their letters and words
Keeps her at crossroads

don’t know which way to turn
Up is the only way to not get burned
For something right she yearns
To trust not in ones own she must learn

Every time a new page is turned
She seems to always get burned
Is it worth the pain
Or just leading to our refrain

short ..and (i wish) sweet

its amazing the emotions you can go through in one day when the whole world is upside down. Life comes at you pretty dang fast, and lately i just can't keep up. I dont know where i belong in this big place...and i'm sick of searching. My problem is i plan, i know this, but for a girl whose dreams always fall through..you've got to have some kind of plan, or dream to pull you through.
Just once i wish i could make a right decision and stay happy, just once i wish i could hold on to the right people at the right time, and push all the wrong ones away. I just wish i had a foothold in where i was going...and i wish i had someone there with me...