forgive and forget

last sunday-easter sunday, my church started out with a familar song that I never thought of in the way it was portrayed..partly because i never thought about the words. (my church is very very contemporary)

the transporters song..what i've done by linkin park
In this farewell There's no blood There's no alibi
Cause I've drawn regret
From the truth Of a thousand lies
So let mercy come And wash away
What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
Put to rest What you thought of me
While I clean this slate
With the hands Of uncertainty
So let mercy come
And wash away
What I've done
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
For what I've done I'll start again
And whatever pain may come
Today this ends
I'm forgiving what I've done

these lyrics are so powerful, and to answer the question i just received...i needed it to forgive..i need it to let go.
Baggage sucks.period.
Go to God, lay it down on the alter, give it up. All easy words, all almost impossible actions. "Come Beloved"...i hear it, i fear it more..

A knot of thankfulness and hurt because of one person. I thank God he was in my life, because he brought me out of a hole so deep, a torment so wide, a friend when i felt i had none, because he gave me hope and made me realize maybe i did deserve better...but then nothing...I emailed him today, just to say hey...i am beyond happy with Joseph so no fear in that...i even heard he has a girl too..so no harm done...Now he is in the box, God has it under control.."Today this ends"

next step: dealing with saturday...

Let mercy come ...